I felt so blue as if my world is turning gray
My heart is craving for something I didn’t wish
The desire of my heart is hard to achieve
As though I have no choice but to feel the emptiness.
I wonder where my loyalty had gone to
I am not sure if it went to my heart, my mind, nor my soul
The betrayal of my heart to my mind
The deepest agony, and anguish that I felt for myself.
My heart is shaking, trembling in anxiety
I don’t know, I really don’t know
But I am expected to know
I should know…
My heart, my mind, my conscience
They shout for different reason
They shout for different happiness
And to top of it they mean contradictory.